ndslotesse's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Am I so weak? Dear Diary, “Are you so strong or is all the weakness in me?” What is it that I’m looking for? I thought I was through looking for anything…a long time ago. I thought I found what I needed but I guess I didn’t. All the smiles and laughter couldn’t take me back now. All I feel is some sort of real bad unhappy. And I’ve lost my way with words because I’m scared that if I do…I’ll know why. And I don’t want it so. I don’t want my words to come back because then…I’ll know. And I don’t know want to know. Dissillusion me. Whatever it takes. Lie to me. I don’t care about the truth anymore. I don’t care what it’s like to die. I don’t care anymore the way you’re looking at me…as long as it’s me. I don’t care if you’re embrace has lost it’s warmth…as long as you’re holding me. I don’t care if you’re kisses are as cold as ice, as long as their given to me. I don’t care if those words pouring from your mouth are lies. Lie to me. I don’t care. I won’t be able to tell. I’ve believed you all this time. I wouldn’t take it back now. I don’t e care about anything else but you and me. I don’t care if this world dies a million times by my hand…I don’t care as long as you’re with me. As long as you haven’t left. As long as I can turn to my side and you’re there. As long as I know you haven’t left. As long as you’re here. Here just with me. Nothing else matters. I don’t care anymore. I don’t care. Lie to me. I don’t want to die but if you killed me, I wouldn’t mind. I don’t care about anything else but you and me. Let me live. Let me die. All of it lying in your hands. In your heart. In your arms. I don’t care with what anyone tells me. I don’t care about them. I don’t care that I’m not suppose to. I don’t care about any of that. I need you and that all I know. I don’t’ care about them. Please, care about me. Let me know that I’m not living some sort of lie. Oh, but I am. Just lie. Just lie. To me. To me. With care, 6:27 p.m. - 2003-05-15 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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