ndslotesse's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Jennifer Pittenger Dear Diary, Today was one of my friends birthday, Jennifer Pittenger. She is a really sweet girl at first last year I thought she was some annoying girl that wasn't worth getting to know. Pretty big assumption. And now I feel awful for ever thinking that. I think I may have judged her on her looks and I hope she doesn't take this into offense but she's just not the prettiest apple in the basket. And I mean that in most possible nicest way ever. I know it may still sound mean because the harshness of that comment (now) is pretty brutal. I think it may have been over the summer when I actually started talking to her. I know it might sound awful but it was surprising and a no-brainer all at once to hear that she was suffering from depression. Is that bad? I mean 'cause I think she was because most people who don't fit in do suffer. Wow, it seems that all I'm doing is ragging on her but that's not my intention at all. This entry was practically dedicated to her because she is such a good friend now. And I feel sort of an accomplishment that I could reach someone that way. I think what moved me the most was this ONE moment in the beginning of this sophomore year of mine. It was during debate and we were laughing and joking in the back by the computer, not really paying attention in class. Or maybe not. Maybe we weren't laughing. I think we may have been on the computer. She's this devoted reader of mine in my diary. And I feel moved whenever I move anyone with my words. But there was this one moment where I'll never forget. I think I was looking down at my hands after she read a poem of mine in my diary. And I didn't know what to think of it and I wanted her to tell me her thoughts. I just kept thinking that it was awful and she just looked at me square in the eye. And she's says "How could you say that? You are an amazing writer. Did you know that last year you were one of the ways that got me through things? To know someone could understand?" I was sort of speechless and I just looked at her not saying anything because I was shocked and flattered. Gave her a hug and I think that's what got us closer together. :) wWe share the same taste in music. With care, 3:18 p.m. - 2003-02-05 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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