ndslotesse's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Clarifying Intimate Details Dear Diary, As I sit her eand realize that my insomnia has completely taken over for the night. I think I've got to make some points clear which I haven't before. I was reading some of my previous entries and I realized that the latest ones were a blurr mainly becaus I completely change I gave no reason for it. I know you all, out there aren't dumb enough to realize that may has fallen in love with Scott. If you read back, you'll realize I never gave much effort to explain much about me and him. Just how I felt about him. But how I feel about him is the most important part. We started dating in August. First date was on August 16! Yeah, said I remember. The movie was 'Blue Crush' at 9:50. How pathetic, huh? I remember ever detail. Sad. Before that, I had only seen him 6 time for the 3-4 months I've known and met him. Strange, huh? We talked throughout the entire summer and we fell in love with just conversation. 4 months and only seeing each other 6 times-max. Funny how life is, huh? I have grown up thanks to him. Life is easier to take knowing I have him. It's the strangest thing. I never thought that I would fall for anyone at my age. You know how cynical I am. "People Suck!" "The World is Shit!" "Love is for Morons!" What *AM* I doing? It took me forever to realize that I was too far in to get back out. I'm so deep in this hole, that even if I tried to crawl back out that some part of me would die if I tried. So, I let thing happen as they should. No more point in resisting. I am in love with Scott. I'm not sure if that clarified anything at all. What bothers me is that fact that I don't like many people knowing the intimate details of my private personal life. Its's my own business. But to make sense of anything in what I say that referst to how I'm feeling. You should know that I think I am in love. That I am May, I am 15, and I am in love. Oh dear God...did I just say that? :) With care, 11:51 p.m. - 2002-12-10 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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