ndslotesse's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Insomnia leads to writing again! Dear Diary, Geeze, look at the time. My insomnia is getting worst, I think, anyway. Actually, in truth I am very tired and I feel the heaviness of my eyelids slowly take hold of my eyes. But the thing is, I can't. I because I know if I do, I'll think about him. And I don't want to, not just yet. I'm not in the mood. I have a problem with over analyzing things, and I hate that. Give me time and I could rethink an entire situation. Especially is some situation requires emotion and feelings, it's better to get me in the moment rather than planned out, because that takes time. I'm not saying I'm a fast-paced girl, I like to take my time. But I swear spontaneity is huge on my list. (Although, I can contradict that in MANY ways, I won't...yet). I sit there and I think. I think a while, a snail could cross the entire continent and I swear, I'd still be in my trance. Don't think when it comes to me and relationships, just do. Just say. Tell me what your feeling. Just saying something from the top of your head, shows what you are really thinking, because it is your subconscious. I think too much for my own good and I know many others out there that do the same, have you found a solution!?!? ...because I'd really like to know. If I die tomorrow, will someone that knows me do a favor? Give this diary address to Scott and dedicate it to him? Tell him I may not be in love with him...but that I love him now and I love him always. I want him to know me inside and out but I'm just not ready yet. Good night. With care, 12:33 a.m. - 2002-12-05 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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