ndslotesse's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I'm back Dear Diary, I have not died! Please, don't think I totally forgot and ignored this diary of mine. I have not. I am a good girl and am responsible enough to keep things. Hopefully. Have read my first entry? Where I state that everything starts out well in the beginning but then I get bored. It's bad? Well, here I am. Trying to make that statement false but it seems that it has already become true. Forgive me? I'll try harder next time. There is so much to say I don't want to bore you too badly. First off: Have I told you about Michael? No? Well, he's Scott's friend. I liked him first before I had liked Scott in the first place. Because I knew of him first during 9th grade. I met both, Scott and Michael, during confirmation. And at first, I was attracted to Michael's outgoing nature and cute looks. He was so nice to me! Scott, seemed so stand-offish. So uninterested (which the way he usual is) but he was good-looking nonetheless. I thought he was another typical Rockhurst guy (All-boys Highschool, who are pricks because they are 'the best' of the best, academic-wise and in athletics). Enough about Rockhurst, because that school just upsets me. I told myself I would never date another Rockhurst guy again. So I vowed never too. I hated Rockhurst with a passion so bad. I've already clarified that I go to an all-girls school, so it would seem logical that I would date a boy from an all-boys school. Fuck that! That's a stupid streotype. So forget it. But here I am, leading off topic once more. So, let me continue. Where was I again? Oh yeah...Michael seemed so much more into me, and he showed it in actions and the way he looked at me. That day on our confirmation orientation, we had to write our phone-numbers down and screen name. So I wrote them down...like a good girl. LOL! I can't remember what exactly I've said about Scott in the past entries. So, I am going to talk about him as if I haven't ever before. So I am came home that night from Confirmation orientation, liking Michael and thinking Scott was just another cute...prick Rockhurst guy. But wait!!! Michael goes to Rockhurst too! Oh no. Why did this have to happen? I was pancaked. So I decided to forget about them, that kinda thing just did NOT float my boat. A few days afterwards I got online to type another entry and Scott had IMed me. We started talking about many things...and for some strange reason we started talking about the topic of love. Me: "Love doesn't happen to people like me" Scott: "Why not?" Me: "Because I just don't want it too". He was more profound than I would have imagined and given him credit for. I was still stuck on Michael but impressed with Scott. But, Michael never talked to me, and everyday afterwards I would talk to Scott about many things. About anything. I realized he was a great conversationalist. AND AN *AMAZING* listener. For some odd reason, I was falling head over heels for a stand-offish, profound, Rockhurst guy. What the hell was wrong with me? Forget it all... But I just couldn't. Later on about a weeks afterwards, we had a retreat. And he was sooo stand-offish he hadn't said a word to me. So I was thinking..."I don't get it". I don't know where the hell I am going with this story because I'm skipping all the details, and you wouldn't know the 12 of it if I tried. I want to say it all...because he means sooo much to me. I love him. And he loves me. With care, P.S What else is there to say? 8:58 a.m. - 2002-09-01 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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