ndslotesse's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Feel Alive Dear Diary, I always have to do something to get me going. To make me feel alive. Recently I gave myself *my own* highlights, it didn't turn out that bad. But hey, you only live once. And that's the reason I do things I don't normally do. I usually stay cocooned into my own isolation so sometiems I feel so dead that I have to do something to wake me up, so I know that I'm alive. Usually, the casual thing for me to do is walk on my railing. It's only about a 20 foot drop, so it's not that bad. But, it makes me feel good. Or like running out in the rain during the night time. That's beautiful. Or having the damn guts to smack that frickin' hot guy that's 21 on the butt (okay, so I haven't done that, but I've *seriously* thought about it). Going out for things, making friends. It still living. Just make sure your not always crowded and hudlesd upstairs your in closet like I am always. Please, try not to be afraid of life and try not to care to much, though, right? What? Huh? What iddi I just say? Oh well...yeah, life's a bitch but, oh well. Who says that it isn't? Just make the best with what you got, I know the sounds cliche and trite but fuck it. Oh well...Just wake up. Okay? Wake up and live once in a while. You need the damn natural high and you need the fuckin' adrenaline rush. Oh well, if I cursed more in this one entry than *practically* all of my entries put together. I feel like sayin' it. And you know what? It makes me feel alive. With care, 12:46 a.m. - 2002-06-13 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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