ndslotesse's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Vivie = May Dear Diary, Promise not to laugh or make fun of me? Tease me or anything of that sort? 'Cause I think I'm going crazy. Has no one seen "The Divine Secrets of the Ya - Ya Sisterhood"? That is a good movie! Geeze... During the movie one of the main characters 'Vivie' was the main "problem" or whatever. I'm insane. I know I don't have children and I *know* I'm not an alchololic or a smoker...I don't know It's just that I can relate to her so *badly*. So much. Just the way she is and the way she feels... ::SIGH:: ...the way she is. During the movie I was constantly reminded that I was similar to her in many ways I can't describe. I don't know. I'm a little confused with this thought because she is a crazy woman. But I am often described as crazy. Oh! And the way her friends described her, that's how my friends described me! "Simple and yet so complicated." Does that not sound like me? Or am I dreaming? And during the end (I don't mean to spoil the movie) so you need not read any further if you wish not to...she says that she use to pray and wish to God that she could be a better person, to be anything, to be more sane...that's me. In a nutshell anyway. Although, I don't have "daughters" to save me, to be my light, I just have...nothing. ::sad smile:: I'm sorry if I'm raving and I'm even more sorry that my writing sounds so horrible but being "happy" can do that to you, I guess. Scott can really make me smile. Vivie + Me = The most tragic and interesting people ever to grace the earth. I feel guilty and strange for writing that previous sentence...it makes me feel strange (probably because I can't stand being concieded or anything of that sort) I mean not to sound concieded, but I'm constantly told that there's no one like me, and people are constantly telling me that I'm one of a kind, that I'm strange and weird...oh, and crazy. So that's me, I'm glad of it too! Let me be crazy, at least I know I'm not normal. And I can live with that. With care, 4:54 p.m. - 2002-06-09 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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