ndslotesse's Diaryland Diary

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I can't breath

Dear Diary,

Wake me up, I think I'm dreaming. I'm still living in my "la-la land" I don't want to leave. I'm almost happy here. Just wanting to be here. I could he happy here.

So wake me up. I can't sleep.

Insomnia.

My writing is going bizerk (is that a word?) I can breath. Why can't I write anymore? Why does no one respond to the way I write? Why am I letting this "smile" feeling get to me? Why can't I just go back to being myself as I was before? The way I was when I wrote well.

Please don't tell me that I didn't write well when I was "depressed" because I don't think I could stand it. I don't think it would be bearable.

~People make jokes, cos they don't understand me
They just dont see my real side
I act like shit, don't phase me,
Inside it drives me crazy
My insecurities could eat me alive~
eminem

With care,
Mayms