ndslotesse's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Help Me Breath Dear Diary, My heart hurts so badly rigt now. I can hardly breath. Can someone please hold my hand? Why can't I find myself being the person I want to be? Why do I get inspired to be this person, and a few days later the fire and passion fade away. I hate it when that happens. ...It's like I can never stay with something anymore. Commitment afraid. I don't know what it is. The pain of being not good enough is the worst, the worst in the world. I think it's the pain that I constantly am fighting against. Not having a boyfriend or whatever. Or not having Scott is pretty...unexplainable. But, the fact that I'm never good enough, the pain that you'll never be is the pain that I think that makes me who I am. The pain that makes me feel this way, so sad. Depression. The pain that I need to leave. Yeah... With care, 12:45 a.m. - 2002-05-31 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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