ndslotesse's Diaryland Diary

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Speciality Crisis

Dear Diary,

I really need to get over Scott! Look how it's affecting my writing! I'm not sure if anyone is enjoying reading my diary when I can't think straight. I haven't been close to happiness in a long time, and he almost makes me feel...that way. I can't let that happen because my writing is suffering!

Have I explained before why I need pain? I never feel special...ever. I'm just never good enough. I have never been intelligent, beautiful, or talented enough. I can feel a heavy weight on my heart just thinking of this.

The only thing that I can be proud of is my writing.

The way I use words to depict how I feel and what I think. My writing sounds extraordinary when I'm in pain. When I have agony, and my heartaches. My writing becomes breath-taking.

But, having Scott around has kept me smiling and sighing all the time ...that should change, I need to change it!

Or I'll never be special again.

With care,
Mayms

3:35 p.m. - 2002-05-28

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