ndslotesse's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Random Nothingness Dear Diary, Just write...it doesn't matter what. Just wahtever that flows through your fingers and whatever just happens to be running through your mind. ...I am alone in the sense that I'm afraid of showing anyone anything, and when I do, i's a sudden burst of spontaneous and I regret that I had said it in the first place. Like when people find out something personal about me...I can feel this long awkward silence that threatens me and paralyzes me. I want to say all that's in my heart, but I find it difficult to say anything to anyone at all. I want to be this long forgotten martyr that just happened to be passer-by-r. Someone who was just there at the moment and was there *for the very first time* in the right place. I want to find someone that could share the same thoughts as me and someone that could hold me as we talked about everything. Everthing. Anything. I don't want any of those non-shallow conversations thatare just there to fill in the gaps of silence, because those are wastes of time. Don't waste your time, because it is a very valuable thing. With care, 12:09 a.m. - 2002-05-19 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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