ndslotesse's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Worrywort Dear Diary, I'm about to go insane. I need to stop worrying so much. I am such a worry wort! I constantly worry about nothing, or at least things that shouldn't matter so much. I always blow things up out of porportion. Geeze, I'm about to go insane. Studying for finals is excuriating. I'm the only one home right now and I feel like screaming my head off because I have this religion paper due friday and I only have the first 5 sentences. I'm presenting it as a project on thursday and I barely have any notes down or any resources to record. I was never like this before...such a procastinator. I think I'm become a worse person. Today was hell, I hated it soooo bad. I want it to end. The only highlight of my day was learning that I was almost done with excel (computer applications activities, a class) and I wouldn't have to worry about it this week while I study for all thses finals. What a pathetic highlight. That's how much I hate peole and how much loath their actions...dont' ask, I have alot on my mind. I just can't stand people. People at my shcool can really rub me the wrong way. I should be smarter than this, y'know?! I shouldn't be stressed out...well, maybe I'm not stressed out I'm just worrying over it to much. Worrying if I fail or not. Finals are 25% of my overall grade. I'm about to faint. ::holds the back of hand to forehead:: You can tell when somethings really bothering me, nagging me, or when I am dying to have something. I get this exasperated look on my face and I always look up or down never forward. I grind my teeth together and squint my eyes and my body never stops moving. I make these whiney noises and I look like I'm about to cry. It doesn't happen often but when it does it goes on a for a long time until I'm satisifed there's nothing to worry about or I'm reassured that I'm getting what I want. Does that make me a bad person? Shit, I'm about to go insane. I'm not joking. HELP! School is such a bitch. With care, Mayms P.S I was shaking so much that I had to correct 17 errors/typos! 8:57 p.m. - 2002-05-07 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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