ndslotesse's Diaryland Diary

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The Perfect Wish

Dear Diary,

Today a thought came to my mind. Does this world have room for people like me? Sometimes I feel so unwanted that sometimes I'm not sure if I want to be alive.

Constantly everyday I daydream and wish for the exact same thing. It's all that I want. I don't want anything else. It's perpetually plaguing my mind.

In movies, do you notice that wishes come true? But, they wish for it the wrong way, they worded it wrong and that's why it always backfires. And at the end, there's that cliche line about how they learned something "I know that I shouldn't wish for...blah blah...because all it was just up to me to make my wishes come true" PLEASE! Whatever.
But doesn't it ever cross your mind that if they said the wishes corretly in a way, it was impossible for it to be taken any other way, would it have come true then? Sometimes, actually, I've come to the conclusion that only wishes come true to people who make wrong ones. Just so some higher idea or being can come to them and say "you knew that all you needed was you...blah blah blah" But, if you made the right wish and said the right words, those idea or beings couldn't come to you and say those things because what'd you have, is all that you wanted.

I'm sorry if this doesn't make sense to you. I thought it over a little bit more and that's what I've decieded on. That's why those dreams and wishes of mine never come true, because I say it exactly the way I want it to happen.

With care,
May

4:41 p.m. - 2002-04-06

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